Give It A Damn

2008-06-30T03:45:00.000-07:00

MOVED TO :
http://hear-the-sea.blogspot.com

2008-06-29T05:28:00.000-07:00

i always feel bad whenever I think of this incident.
If it din come out of my mouth like some bullets off the rifle,
maybe things wun get so bad,
u wun get wad u actually dun deserve in the first place.
It's not that I hate u,
it's juz tat i dun have the courgae to face u after all the stupid things i have done.
Anyway,
in the first place,
I'm the one who let u down.
Who am I to hate you ?
I shld be thankful that u dun hate me.
That's why whenever u talk to me,
I try to end the convo as quickly as possible
and avoid eye contact with u.
That's bcoz whenever I see u,
it reminds me of this incident,
and I'm too juz too ashamed to lift my head up.
I'm so sorry for wad I have done.
I have destroyed the future of a smart and intelligent student.
~~I'm an asshole~~

2008-06-28T19:44:00.001-07:00

Nthing much happened recently,
so i shall reply tags.

yh>> o.O ? I tot u stil got ______ veri near u wad. lolz and wadeva la, mr zong stil veri young.

enqi>> HAHA, okayy..My chang jiao stil not the best yet la, our team stil got many more pro-er changjiao.

kathy>> wadeva lorh, u dun keep ur promise de lo. wth.

stephanie>> ya lo, teacher see u short ma. HAHA XD

jillian>>haha, chinese is so boring. =X

shawn>> HUH... Y delete ? I dun wan link coz dun wan let teachers know other students' blogs.

stephanie & shawn>> HAHA. Both chairmans asking me where i got the timetable. LOL

shiyuan>> I think ur sis is mad with me for telling u her blog URL/ =x

2008-06-26T04:17:00.001-07:00

For the very first time,
I'm sitting beside zhenzhi.
;)

And for the fifth time,
I'm sitting beside shengjue.
XDD

And for the 2nd time,
I'm seated between 2 ppl.

And finally,
for the first time in my entire school life,
I'm sitting at the last row,
which can be good and bad at times.

Something I'm sure of is,
I can concentrate much better behind
despite the many "sleeping beauties" ard me.
HAHA.

Oh,
to add on.
TO ALL RVTT SEC 3 batch,
dun forget abt our rvttsec3.blogspot.com
It contains pleasant memories,
which...
...
...

2008-06-25T01:46:00.000-07:00

Goodbye
and
harlow

I hate it
especially when it's so close.

Why did i even nod my head in the first place ?

2008-06-24T05:08:00.000-07:00

I'm back frm training
and my mood was totally spoilt by it.

Tired and sleepy.
I hate poems.
Why do ppl write poems
when they can write in full statement to make the reader unserstand better ?
They dun make sense to me.
Fine,
I'm shallow.
Maybe i shall ask the 2 ELIT students sitting beside me 2morro.

And we're chnging place.
shld I be happy,
or sad ?
Look on the bright sad.
XDDD

恭喜恭喜，
女鬼明天将投胎了！

Control your emotions well,
we aren't here to be scolded by you.
I mean who do you think you are to scold us in the first place ?
=.=

2008-06-23T01:23:00.001-07:00

Everyone looks forward to the start of a term
especially after a long period of time not seeing ur friends.
Maybe not everyone
if we were to know that things weren't the same ANYMORE.

There was a revolution in my class today.
yes,
revolution = great change.

RV has employed so MANY staff to prepare herself for YEAR 5 AND YEAR6.
So many,
until there isn't much space left on the staff board where u see lots of pictures.
Fine,
I'm exaggerating.
But one visible sign is that the Chinese department has been ~~isolated~~ shifted to some ~~weird~~ serene and tranquil place.

I'm in a good mood today,
so I shall post longer.

First our PE teacher changed.
From Mrs Yeow to Mr Teo.
Well, it's okay since all PE teachers are equally friendly.
I saw mrs chan in sch today.

Then our math teacher changed.
From Mr Ng to Mr Zong, who is only 26.

The sadd-est thing was,
Mr Chow decided to ~~sacrifice~~ leave us and teach the sec 4s,
leaving us with Ms Tan who is only 25.
I was really sad by this ~~stupid~~ arrangement coz i tot mr Chow is a good teacher
and I'm in love with bio because of his lessons.
These are heartfelt words,
I'm not a bootlicker.

*LIGHTNING STRIKES*
Our SS teacher is changed frm Mr ernest Chia to MIS CHIA KELLY.
Well, she wasn't here today and so din really witness her "prowess".
I doubt yh dare to ask for her age.
and zz said, "OMG, I carn sleep during SS lessons le"
LOL.

And geography teacher is changing too.
Mr Chan has been telling us that he will be retiring soon,
but i din expect it to be so soon.
Ms Kan will be teaching us.
Ms Kan,
i dun even know how she looks like.

Ya,
tat's all.
I'm totally unprepared for all these changes.
It seems more like a new year
than a new term to me.

Fine,
enough of all these.

During SS lesson,
there was a relief teacher teaching us IRELAND.
And shawn and kathy were boasting to me abt TOKYO.
Saying wad get naked for sauna
and how amazing their toilets are.
ARGHHH.
Made me so envious.
We spoke so loudly
anf the relief teacher was giving us a
"talk-more-la-later-fail-not-my-problem" look.
True enough,
after that lesson,
everyone had many pages of notes except mine.
I wrote " NOTHERN IRELAND" and some words.
Nice job, jing zhan!
=.=

I am in a good mood
so I am here to disturb ppl on msn.
HAHA
XDD

2008-06-22T01:29:00.001-07:00

Dear students,
Holiday is coming to an end in a few days time. Hopefully you had some rest and can come back ready to learn and enjoy school life again.
Here are some instructions when term begins:
(a) Practical must be brought in on Monday as there will practical on the first day of Term 3 Week 1.
(b)A total of 5 marks will be given when you submit the following by Tuesday of Week 1:
(1) Purple colour Plastic file consisting of all assignments up to assignment 7, test papers and examination papers, quizzes and any . All corrections must be completed and done in green pen.
(2) Another plastic file in yellow consisting of all notes with questions in it completely done.
(3) Fill up the content page given to you earlier in the term. If you have lost it, do a hand-written one.
(4)Practical book with corrections done and graph paper if any pasted properly.
Physics representative of each class to collect the 2 files and practical book by Tuesday afternoon 2.00 p.m.
Mrs. Lee -Teo Lak Tin

2008-06-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

this shall be a short post
as i'm logging off in a few mins time.

Maybe the sch knows that studying up to 3.40pm is smthing HARMFUL to the body.
So PHEW,
in term 3, lessons in mon and thurs end at 3.20,
which is NOwhere better too.

I gained control of myself when i saw you

2008-06-16T22:22:00.001-07:00

There are two sides to every coin.

I hope u know that.
maybe not u,
but to the bunch of morons out there,
I may be in the wrong,
but u all are never perfect.
Get this stuck in ur head
and not go ard spreading some stupid things abt _______.

It has been for like two terms already
and stop being so petty.

Srsly,
I carn believe my ears when i first heard that.
But still,
it has proven to be quite true,
or i wld'nt be posting abt this matter.

I'm really getting rather fucked up by all these.
I mean ALL OF US.
I wld not want to rake this matter up
if u all have stopped all ur nonsense.
We shld really spend our precious time doing meaningful things
instead of scolding ppl on blogs and tagboards.

Yes
tat's wad many counsellors told me.
I doubt u are readin my post,
but i hope u do.
TO STOP ALL THIS.
WOLRD PEACE is wad we are all trying to achieve.
We have given in the first step,
but have u ?

I'm gg to pia all my project.
So my blog will be stagnant for maybe a week ?
But plz,
keep my tagboard alive.
TYVM
XDD

2008-06-16T19:38:00.000-07:00

分离固然伤感，
但若没了它，
我们又如何感受重逢的喜悦？

Yesterday after training,
slq,xh and I went to yanran hse.
And i took a cab there,
which cost me 10 bucks.

The moment I enter her house,
I tot i was entering a PALACE.
A three storey high PALACE.

And the first thing that greeted me was PRINCESS
Yanran's old, old, old dog.
She was sleeeping soundly and so we decided to be kind and not to play with her.

We went up to the second floor,
to yanran's bedroom.
And i realised yanran was afraid of the dark.
She sleeps with her maid.
HAHA.

Then we played daidi at the third floor.
And I'm the KING for many times.
With such a PRO teacher,
shiyuan, yanran's bro, learned veri quickly..
Unlike yanran..
coz her teacher was xinhui..
XDDD

At abt 8pm,
the maid called us and we ran down from third floor to first floor.
But we din see PRINCESS !
Shiyuan said PRINCESS was afraid of thunder
so maybe she was hiding.
=.=

I tot yanran had a cat too,
but i din see it.
Yanran said the cat has gone out on her own.
like LOL ?

We had a scrumptious dinner.
And i ate beef unknowingly.
><

PRINCESS eats bones.
And so we need to wash the bones of the chicken wings to feed her.
I GOT CHASED BY THE DOG !!!!!
LOL
coz I was so stupid to attract her to me with a bone.
Then she chased me ard the hse.
Fortunately, they din video-cam the whole thing.

And the cat came back after a stroll.
Heard that she is veri fierce,
fiercer than PRINCESS.
Dare not provoke her.

Then went up to third storey to watch STEP UP.
Quite nice but din watch all.
Returned at 9pm.

On bus,
had a long talk with slq on NJC life.
Ya,
she said ppl in NJ were completely different frm RV ppl.
can be good and bad.
Haiz,
we only have a gathering like once a half year.
sad..
look forward to the next gathering
and gg to yanran hse again !!!

Apparently,
there's something wrong with my phone.
I carn upload the pictures i have taken
=X

2008-06-15T00:03:00.000-07:00

别让我连爱的资格都没有
我不在乎有没有以后

reply tags
yijun>>> HAHA. tel u next time. But it's getting better now. LOL

yh>>poker la.

kathy>> poker where got fun? i always asshole lorh. =X

sf>> WUN LA ! urs has BBQ leh. surely much much fun-er than us de lo.

yh>> ok..coz u got ur own entertainment wad. go tok to ck on phone for like one hour. crazy.

yijun>> orh, ic. i heard they quite enthu this yr, got ppl like jasmine they al. HAHA

yh>>> HUH ? y u ?

nenque>> LOL. Isit abit late to reply u now ? HAHA

sh4uN>> ya, i missed it. But i wld go next time XD

2008-06-12T20:26:00.000-07:00

我们已经来到对的时间对的位置
为什么不要做对的事

see no evil
hear no evil
say no evil

I hate myself for knowing so much secrets.
I will try to forget all of them.

2008-06-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

The 3E class chalet was a total disaster.
I'm willing to give you more than enough reasons to say why.

1.only sixteen turned up for the chalet and less than 10 stayed overnight.
2. We needed to walk about 2.4 km to the bike shop.
3. Jiahui lost her wallet. =X
4. Kbox was fully booked by 8pm.
5. It started to rain after the 9pm drama.
6. Some unpleasant things happened in between.
7. Had a hard time making zhaozhi stay.
8. Stoned and looked at each other with NO activities at all.
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and many many more.

We arrived at 12pm and had lunch at White Sands Mall.
Lagged around at Macs and arcade to wait for steph.

Leonard and Yencheng travelled all the way back to Safra Mount Faber at 2pm for lan,
leaving me the only boy. =.=

We checked in rather not successfully, coz an uncle kept warning us to be responsible
despite duno-how-many-times of assurance.
Managed to get 30 dollars by selling away the Escape tickets
and bought some tidbits and dinner (cup noodles).

Stoned at chalet frm 3pm to 5pm,
watching wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai.

went to the bike shop.
I felt so guilty bcoz of my decision, jiahui lost her wallet.

went to receive leonard and yencheng at 6pm
due to yh's incessant nagging behind.

Zhaozhi came, FINALLY.

returned chalet at 7pm and left at 8pm.

when we walked to Macs there,
realised it's fully booked.

Lagged around at arcade
and leonard and yencheng decided to watch kungfu Panda,
leaving me, zhaozhi and yh.

Returned to chalet to continue our stoning exercise.

Some unpleasant thing occured in between.
Fortunately, it's not long-lived.

The zhaozhi wanted to went home.
We started to beg him to stay.
and good enough,
he stayed !

Saw zhenzhi, cheehow they all at mac.
Came and ka-jiao us at night.
Maybe, tat's the only fun part.

All the way stoning up to 6am.........
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Leonard and yencheng decided to avoid the morning peak hours
and left early.
Followed by zhaozhi.

Chonyan came at 9.30 pm.
Yh was simply over the moon
and touched.
Played dai-di and i was an asshole for many times.

Left the chalet,
not turning back to take a last look.

I slept throughout the 2hr journey on bus.
It was freezing cold, despite my sweater.

To the fifteen heroes who turned up:
-Zhaozhi
-Leonard
-Yencheng
-Chongyan
-Stephanie
-Jillian
-Yh
-Katherine
-Sonyan
-YongEn
-Kathy
-DongYing
-Jiahui
-Congwan
-Me !

*Note: I'm simply telling u wad happend throughout the chalet. Fine, maybe not all. But in this post, I din use any emoticon or use any adjective to describe my feelings at then. Apparently, they are negative ones. I decided to bury them deep in my heart and not to hurt anyone anymore.

~~I think i am being made use of.~~
~~I hate it.~~
~~so, plz stop it~~

2008-06-08T05:10:00.000-07:00

我不要你的承诺，
也不要你答应我的永远，
只要求你真真切切爱我一遍。

Some ppl have been asking whether all those Chinese words above reflect my life.
So, I shall make it veri clear tat
NO, it doesn't.
I'm not in love,
(like...duhhhh?)
Juz felt tat those words are rather meaningful
so decided to post them up.
And i din invent those words,
I'm not tat pro, k ?
HAHA !
I found them in lyrics.

RVTT ULTIMATE OUTING
VS
3E CLASS CHALET

Wait,
they dun clash on the same day,
but my ridiculous mum only allowed me to go to one.
(My mum has been veri bushuang with me gg to zheng private training every sat=X)

Of coz,
I'm sure tat RVTT ULITIMATE OUTING wld be damn fun
with so many seniors coming back
and first time gg out with sec 1 juniors.
I would not want to miss it. >,<

Neither do i want to miss 3E CLASS CHALET,
coz tat was e first 3E CLASS CHALET.
And i sort of look forward to it. XDDD
Somemore i was the one who initiated to have chalet,
then if i din go, abit =X

TSK, HAIX.
I promised I wld go to the next RVTT outing.
;)

Let's hope it does'nt rain next week.
Next week shall be the most hectic and the fun-est week !
XDD

reply tags

yijun>>>> HAHA, true. Next time u will see me with white hair. But i shall dye it to black or else teacher accused me of dying hair. LOL

nenque>>> NO ! I'm much better lorh. I dun nid her stinky charcoal. I got electrical supply de. HAHA

kathy>>> OOPPPPS. I made a great mistake, it shld be siao da bor. Sorry la. got ut gender mixed up. ;DD AND NO! My blog are'nt emo. I mean they are not meant to be.

Stephanie>>> DUHH ! Dun tel me u live in caves like mine. HAHA. JKJK. and YES ! MRS WEE

Kathy>>>ONG, isn't tat unique larh. At least i know of a ____ called ONG next door.

Stephanie>>> RIGHT !!! MINE IS THEN UNIQUE. I think only 4 ppl in Singapore have surname LOCK. My relatives are called LOKE. Strange right ?

2008-06-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

原来这种不完美
才是大家真实的样子。。。

I'm listening to a veri HIGH song
instead of those veri SAD songs
bcoz of a veri simple reason.

The ppl outside are cutting grass which generates so much noise.
I need to outbeat them by blasting those loud music.

And i saw 3_ class tee.
LMAO !

2008-06-04T22:33:00.000-07:00

我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬。。

Reply tags
alvis>>I agree ! The quiz makes no sense. I'm juz too bored.
jiarong>> LOL. Thanks ! XD
nenque>>tsk tsk. Then wad shld i do?
yijun>>HAHA tyvm ! ;D
jasmine>> I'm not yunrong la. I'm jing zhan. U went to the wrong blog. LMAO !
nenque>> I think I'm so bored that i posted such stupid posts.
sf>>Oh, quick leh. I wan it. U mean _____? =.<

2008-06-04T00:38:00.000-07:00

如果相爱是错，
错了又算什么？
这一次我们
宁死不放手。。。

Arghh,
juz returned from ________.
Had a friendly match with their gals
and since i was allocated to the not-so-pro table,
I basically won all matches.
XD

And i think I'm getting more and more retarded.
I have a serious human reaction error-{Wadeva u call that}.

My legs shld have moved when I see the ball coming,
but i only move after the ball has bounced.
Wad's the problem with me !?
OmG,
I think i'm even slower than an old man.

3 HRS were spent in ________ b4 we went to Tiong Bahru to have lunch.
Smthing interesting happened.
Yun Rong pang-sehed us,
but we can accept his reason. XD

And the remaining four sec 3s and four sec2s went to MOSS BURGER to have lunch.
I have sinned, as usual.
Sze Fan shld know why.
tsk tsk, feeling so guilty now.

Such a guai1 ppl like me is going to extinct soon.
LOL.
Dun puke. I dun allow that. LOL
The rest of the boys went to lan shop except me.
*applause*

FINE, i shall admit tat I'm not guai,
I'm juz too noob.
I live in a cave,
opposite to xinhui's. HAHA.
But i'm better
in the sense that I dun nid to start fire with rocks. XD

Came back and here I am using computer listening to songs.

THIS IS LIFE.
I DUN MIND PLAYING TT FOREVER.

Wait, I take back my last sentence
coz my leg muscles are aching.
SEE !
I'm an old man. >.< ! 2.06.07

Two days ago,
instead of bukit mearah central,
zhaozhi, chongyan and I went to Vivo City de GIANT.
Not to buy anything,
but to jot down the price of different brands of rice for math stat project.

U can juz imagine how tedious it was
when u see two big pile of rice stacked on each other.
Two different types of rice, brown and white.

It took less than one hour, i think, for us to finish jotting down all.
And then we went LJS for lunch.

WoW, and i tot tat was a veri quiet lunch.
HAHA.

And we were supposed to go ADDIDAS shop to play table soccer
but we found out that some people were using,
So we walked ard VIVO CITY to kill time
Yes !
It's a good exercise.

Oh,
I'm sure zhaozhi is reading my blog now.
I realise he reads my blog VERI often.
XD

And i "imparted" all my "knowledge" to they all.
^^

That was perhaps my second time playing table soccer,
and I'm more than happy to win zz and cy once.
XD.
Actually, it's quite easy de la.. u know...tsk..
*拽个屁啊! *
LOL.
;D

I realise i've a bad habit to tok to myself.
IMH has opened her door for me.

My post is'nt in any chronological order.
Sorry.

2008-06-02T23:38:00.000-07:00

It's raining.

Bring an umbrella along with you.

2008-06-01T18:27:00.000-07:00

两个相爱的人，
如果有了相反的梦
分开以后，
还能记得什么？

是相遇时的惊心动魄，
是相爱时的甜美时光
是争执时的锥心刺骨
还是分手时的最后祝福？

在分手后，
搬家那天，
收拾房间，
打包回忆。

对男主角，
是百感交集一天。
对每个爱过的人，
是永远记得的一天。

记得张惠妹

谁还记得
是谁先说
永远的爱我？
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口。

过了太久没人记得，
当初那些温柔。
我和你手牵手，
说要一起走到最后。

又有还记得爱情开始变化的时候，
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空。
走得太远，
终于来到了分岔路的路口。

两个相爱的人等着对方
先说分开的理由。

Credits :
华纳音乐唱片公司

LoL.
This song brings back alot of memories.

If you're free, see the MV at :
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ljwMweaTd8o

Oh,
sze fan plz send me this song.

2008-05-31T23:02:00.000-07:00

The last thing in my mind was to hurt her,
yet I had hurt my best friend.
One moment of weakness,
a few badly chosen words in haste without thinking
and I had destroyed a 2 years and 3 months friendship.

She was my one of my great friends in my school
and we shared many things in common.
We were of the same age, lived in the same neighborhood,
liked the same songs and even chose the same combination.
It's surprising, but on looking back now,
I realised that I used to spend almost all my CCA time with her and many other friends.

I knew she is a person who hates liars.

Thing took a bad turn one day.
I made a foolish prank on her.
Irritation was written all over her face.

She said nothing,
just turned her back and walked away from me.
That was about 2 months ago and we have not spoken since.
I tried all sorts of way to apologise to her and get her back,
but she simply refuses to forgive me.

I realise now that i have been very immature for the past few years.
I wish i had kept my big mouth shut
and all these things wouldn't happen at all.

If it were just a dream,
please wake me up.
I had enough of it.

2008-05-30T04:49:00.000-07:00

Here's a short quiz.

Here's 20 ppl.
Oh, it's not in any particular order

1.Sheng Jue
2.Shawn
3.Zhao Zhi
4.Chong Yan
5.Chi Kan
6.Stephanie
7.Kathy
8.YongEn
9.Rachel
10.Xin Hui
11.Yan Ran
12.Hanni
13.Jia Rong
14.Sze Fan
15.Yao Rong
16.Cheng Li
17.Yu Jie
18.Yun Rong
19.Wan Zhen
20.Nen Que

How did u meet 14 ? [Sze Fan]
RVTT. I still remember him saying that he wanted to transfer to NCC on the first day of CCA.

What would u do if u never meet 1 ? [Sheng Jue]
There is nothing i can do, though it wld be a pity to miss out such a great friend in my life.

What if 9 and 20 dated ? [Rachel and Nenque]
I'm against homosexual. So, I wld break them up. LOL. ;)

Will 6 and 17 date ? [Stephanie and Yujie]
Of coz not. 17 has one already. LOL.

Describe 3. [Zhao Zhi]
My ex tablemate. Veri quiet, but can be veri noisy at times XD. It's fun sitting beside him. One of my veri good friends. ;D

Describe 7. [Kathy]
A siao zhao bor sitting in frt of me.err. veri noisy lo. mrs **e

Do u know any of 12 family members ? [Hanni]
HUH ? no leh...

Wad wld u do if 18 confessed to you ? [Yun Rong]
WoW. Haven really tot of it. I wld be disgusted, i think. LOL

Wad language does 15 speak ? [Yao Rong]
stupid qn.

Who is 9 going out with ? [Rachel]
My current tAblemate. Oh, I once said she has smthing gg on with shawn. OPPs.

How old is 16 ? [Cheng Li]
Same as me, 15

When's the last time u spke to 13 ? [Jia Rong]
Last day of sch. I was asking whether she's going to chalet.

Who's 2 favourite band/ singer? [Shawn]
She said she din have any particular fave on any singer. But she kept singing the "Touch My Body" song.

Would you ever date 4 ? [Chong Yan]
LOL. Nver ! HAHA ;D

Would you ever date 1 ? [Sheng Jue]
Never also LA ! LOL ;)

Is 19 single ? [Wan Zhen]
Think so leh..

Would you ever be in relationship with 11 ? [Yan Ran]
Yes! Why not ?

Sch of 3 [zHAO zhi}
stupid qn. same as me la !

Where does 6 live ? [Stephanie]
I also duno. But i wld like to know. HAHA

What's ur favourite thing of 5 ? [ChiKan]
He's as childish as me. LOL

Have u ever seen 2 naked ? [Shawn]
NO ! haha. i Din even see him semi-naked him b4 !

Next five ppl to do this LAME quiz:
{Shall choose those with blogs}

1.Sze Fan
2.Stephanie
3.Yun Rong
4.Jia Rong
5.Hanni

2008-05-29T22:46:00.001-07:00

I'm going to adopt a brand new way of blogging.
That doesn't mean you are going to read emo posts everytime u come here.

As promised,
I shall blog something interesting that happened yesterday.

I jumped straight into my bed after the 9pm drama,
thinking that i could have a good sleep.

Yes,
my assumption is never right.

As u know,
I'm a light-sleeper.
I wake up at the slightest noise.

I heard this stamping sound outside my house.
Damn irritated,
I went to see wad was going on.
Which inconsiderate assholes were making a din outside ?

I saw this.
Three adults playing with fire.
=.=
They lsit up the newspaper and threw it on the ground.
God knows what they are doing.

I nearly called the police.

My dad came and told me they were killing ants.
YES, killing ants.

So, i shld be thanking them instead of scolding them arh ?
Instead of assholes, they became heroes. =.=

I went back to sleep,
thinking why there were so many ants ard.
It then dawned on me that there were many ants in my house recently too.

Well,
and i'm juz seeking trouble by linking it to the sichuan earthquake.
Okay, I think i'm either too pro or juz too dumb
to find a link to link these completely different matters.

For the rest of night,
i could'nt sleep.
I imagined myself being buried under the rubble.
in complete darkness
and my limbs stuck under those heavy debris.

I began to think what would happen to me if i die
and what wld happen if i didnt.

Being handicapped.

oh,
i wld rather be dead.

And this carried on for a few hours on my bed.
I slept at 1am despite my fatigue.

Oh, and before i slept,
I wondered why the three heroes chose to use fire instead of insecticides
despite the many reports that oil prices are rocketing.

2008-05-29T22:31:00.000-07:00

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